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January 20, 2007
lucy in the sky with diamonds
well not exactly. but i am rather happy and have a nice floaty feeling going on after a horrible morning.
i got scheduled for an MRI today and part of me knew what that entailed but most of me was in denial until we got to the imaging center. i had to use pliers to get my jewelry off and i got really quiet. now i'm not a morning person so that's not so unusual but this was the i'm-freaking-out-and-trying-not-to-have-a-panic-attack kind of quiet. the receptionist suggested i might want to take something to perhaps "chill" a bit, so once again it was dar.vo.cet. to the rescue.
it's really quite noisy in that tunnel. but i'm getting ahead of myself. so the woman who was running the scanner had me put earplugs in and lay back. then she put this contraption over my face and that was the end of me being calm. it was like this metal bar or something that snapped into the sides of the box that my head was in. nuh uh! get me out out out! had to get the technician to unhook the contraption so i could breathe and take a few minutes to calm down. i opted then for her to use a different part that didn't make me feel like i was caged but does not give as clear of an image. whatever. at least they're getting an image!
she also put a mask over my eyes so i couldn't see how unbelievably small and cramped the inside was. then i was moved into the belly of the machine and there i stayed. forever. but i was able to maintain calm by thinking of anything other than being in a teeny tiny little space and not being able to get out. and having to remain still. and not swallow. how are there people out there who are not claustrophobic? thankfully about 2 seconds after i decided i couldn't possibly stay in there any longer i was done. then the girlfriend got me to the car and we ventured on to lunch.
so much for my diet. i'm now all too aware that my emotions are tied in with my food, so for lunch i had a sandwich on sourdough and potato chips at the place around the corner from our house. definitely not south beach friendly. and my mondo cafe latte was wonderful. so much so that i plan to go there every day for my morning coffee instead of sucky starbucks. i walked home the 1 1/2 blocks, stopping at the liquor store to get milk for the coffee the girlfriend said she'd make for me at home. and i bought powdered donuts too.
now i'm sitting at home trying to remember which keyboard goes with which monitor, since my laptop is plugged in and sitting on my desk with my other computer looming behind it. i keep typing on the keyboard for the laptop and looking on my desktop for the words that are not appearing and vice versa. gotta get my laptop on my network so i can stop using the desktop. it's confusing even when i'm not high.
Posted by musikchyck at January 20, 2007 01:23 PM